When I started high school all I wanted was to fit in, so I tried to make as many “friends” as possible. I wanted to be popular(whatever that means), so I hung out with the “cool kids” in hopes to get myself noticed. I was so happy to be apart of this group I had so many more friends than I did before. Today I realize that those people were not all my friends because they did not treat me like a friend should. To be fair I am also at fault because I really only wanted to be their friends so I would finally be seen. This plan obviously did not work, because I ended up using these people to hide behind and just pretended to be invisible. One day I finally got sick of being known as just their friend and not being known as my “own” person. I’m sure you have all heard the iconic saying, “High School is where you meet the friends you will keep forever” I would like to tell you straight up this is not true. I have learned a lot from high school, although I will probably forget what the powerhouse of the cell is. But I will always remember, how it feels to be surrounded by people yet utterly alone. I thought I needed a lot of friends, but I don’t, I need real friends even if that means just having a handful of friends. I don’t have a bunch of friends, but I love the few friends I have because they have supported me and loved me through everything. Don’t do what I did and waste your time on people that could care less about you, surround yourself with people that love YOU!!
To anyone who has ever felt alone..
I left high school thinking that everything was going to get better. However, I found that University was not at all what I expected. I let my anxiety get in the way of my life, I was so afraid to put myself out there, so I just decided to be invisible. I have had to overcome a lot of my fears this year, there were times where I didn’t think I would make it, but I survived. If there is someone out there who feels the way I do, I want you to know that you are not alone. Put yourself out there, find friends who will support you and love you no matter what. I have decided that I will no longer let my anxiety run my life, I have the power to improve my life and so do YOU! Anxiety can affect people in different ways for me I hate large crowds, so I have never really enjoyed going to university parties. My friends have got angry at me before and have said: “you know its just a party so why is it such a big deal.” I understand why my friends get mad, heck I get angry at myself too, I say to myself
Anxiety can affect people in different ways, but for me, the big thing is I hate large crowds, so I have never really enjoyed going to university parties. My friends have got angry at me before and have said: “you know its just a party so why is it such a big deal.” I understand why my friends get mad, heck I get angry at myself too, I say to myself kenz why can’t you just be a “normal” teenager and have fun. But for me when I am surrounded by large crowds I can get very anxious, my heart beats like crazy, and I just fear the worse. This is something that I have to overcome every day because I cannot avoid large groups of people. Don’t live your life in fear, because if you do that, you are just letting anxiety win!
You are never alone-
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